//getting crazy. crazy. crazy.

soooo for cereals...

it's been a while since my blog

& i said "heyyyy".

a lot has happened

and i've been confused 

and overwhelmed.

got cold feet.

ambivalence.

laziness.

hard-heartedness.

forgetfulness.

not excuses.

just the truth.

i live in flesh, a lot.

this deal isn't easy.

it isn't the cool thing to do to spend 

lots of energy, time

and money on mission work.

i'm 26.

no kids. hello, freedom?! lol.

maybe my hubby & i can fly to

england. or japan.

or the moon.

we rent a little house.

but i'd rather own my

own home.

decorate it with

my antiques and pretty things.

have people over for parties

every week and eat lots of 

delicious recipes.

that's my american dream.

i honestly do not want to be rich.

except when i pass the coach store

or see the most precious

michael kors gold peep toe heels. 

{have you seen them? macys! OH EM GEE.}

but i want enough.

i want....imma say it!

TO BE COMFORTABLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

ughhhhhh.

i got a little lost, i think.

don't we all?

but i think about the homeless that live on the street.

the families that don't always have enough to eat each night.

the lonely people..who's spouses work 93850384503 jobs

just to make ends meet.

the boys who play soccer without shoes.

the orphans who, once they grow up, will

never see anyplace outside

their part of the world.

UGHHHHHHHHHHH.

ouch.

broken.

undone.

i'm here, Jesus.

anyways...i'm going to ethiopia.

and i am in full fundraising mode!

letters have been sent out!

i'm blowing up your facebook news feed!

and i'm super excited about a really

FUN goodie-filled fundraiser in the next few weeks.

i already have an UHHHHH-MAYYYY-ZINNNNG camera bag donated

as well as lots of yummy deliciousness from my favorite

vendors for my photography business. :] :] :]

just wanted to update!